she flows through my veins, like the blood forced around by my broken heart. a moment away is the eternity i hid from for most of my life, the definite moment when i realised it was all over. turning away and into the wind i feel it biting into my face, but it is a good pain, it brings with it the realisation that i too am only human, all of my delusions of being able to change something float away, so much like leaves in autumn.
step by step the gap grows between us, the space extends and warps into something more solid. i could reach out and touch the distance that has become, i don't even know her any more. but did i ever? do i even know
and i lie here
with a pen and a pad
filling up the time that i should spend with you
writing words that should be words for you
and thinking thoughts that should be thoughts for you
and i can't sleep
with my head on the pillow
wasting time when i could be writing
if i write everything down
then it will make sense
eventually...eventually
did you know that i could stop time?
if i knew how before
i would of stopped in my favourite moment
when i looked into your eyes and said i loved you
and i saw the happiness in your eyes
because you loved me so much too
these tears bear my name
for you to wear on your face
these tears bear my blood
born from your disgrace
you have no right to lose control
i can't let go
and noone knows why i hate you
stood within your shadow
these tears bear no freedom
for that is what you've taken
these tears bear no memory
because memory you've forsaken
you have no right to dissappear
you cannot fade away
noone understands what you meant to me
noone saw that day
these tears they bear no meaning
for you to just ignore
these tears bear insignificance
as you walked out the door
you have no right to return
just go and don't come back
noone knew why you le
so radiant around me that i had to step inside
she lent me a kiss but i forgot the meaning
i wandered inside her and entered her world
enchanting her from within with the ice in my breath
and the freeze to my touch that leaves her shivering
breathe in the feeling that travels down her spine
and feel the hairs on her neck turn up to me and wonder
the wind that blew outside her was never mine
but i wish i had thought to rain down on her
why the lightning in her eyes had never set me alight
was a bitter unknown that tore my hopes apart
but the light shone through the tattered holes
leaving me alone to think as i explored her body
th
Lost Child
My pale ash ghost
Lie before me
And float upon the crinkled waves
Of what once was comfort
Your eyes, once the sky
Are dull and listless like dirt
I cried for you child
And I wish you could hear
Because you would still be alive
To drown in my tears
But you have left
Taking with you the light
All I have is your body
So void of life
feel the breeze, of the sea
as it washes over me
felt a kiss, felt a touch
but i never really felt that much
leave my words, left unsaid
lie all day and cry in bed
start a fight, with myself
because i never really tried to help
whispered tears, down my face
i always lose the race
i look up, i look down
but i never looked around
when it rains, it only pours
go inside and close the door
shut away, what i felt
noone would ever tell
present, past, future tense
all come back to haunt again
live my life, through a loop
i feel i'm jumping through their hoops
final wind, in my hair
the final time i need to care
one foot out, one
And
and when you die
your soul becomes a star
and you yourself are an angel
flitting between the stars
and if you relinquish your hate
the fiery fingers pulling at the feathers of your wings
are the hands of the ones you love
pushing you on to immortality
and if you let them push
instead of holding on
then now you are truly free
and one day you will be reunited
deep within the heaven you create for yourself
and then when you are reborn
when an eternity has passed
you will find new life, new love
and your old star will fade
to be replaced the next time you move on
and once again your loved ones will help you
on your way to
A Lullaby To My Baby Unborn by MunkDoobious, literature
Literature
A Lullaby To My Baby Unborn
a lullaby to my baby unborn
reach out for words you don't understand
the light in the darkness i sing away
open up your eyes, does it fade?
a lullaby sweet child for you to grasp
breathing in on choking air
soft transparent skin, can you feel?
my baby unborn enjoy your time
your darkness is your only light
because soon it goes away, do you know?
poor child you'll never know
i want you to stay but they would take you away
you'll never know me, do you want to?
don't tell me to smile
i feel you talking years from now
but years are lost, what is time?
time is stolen
a lullaby to my baby unborn
destined that way to stay, but do t
Is This?
Let forever fade into a moment
An hourglass into a grain of sand
Millennia into infinity
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Hours melt into days
Time we cannot give back
So I burn it all away
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Tears become oceans
Love fades away
Emotion dies
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Now shouts are whispers
The thoughts as we sleep
The dreams are eternal
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Warmth
The cold fingers of wintry thoughts
wrap and supress the incandescence of the body of warmth
deep within my heart
I traied to paint your beauty
all over the walls of the world
but my memory fades
and the world is so small without you anyway
Small white releases
washed down with shame
why does it come to this?
when you know it should of been locked away
Tear silver clarity
through my lonely flesh
and crimson realisation
is that i can't see your face
Your pedestal of gold is now a pedestal of coal
a crumbling misfortune which i took years to build
but fade away and dissappear
there's no longer warmth for you to shelte
Warmth
The cold fingers of wintry thoughts
wrap and supress the incandescence of the body of warmth
deep within my heart
I traied to paint your beauty
all over the walls of the world
but my memory fades
and the world is so small without you anyway
Small white releases
washed down with shame
why does it come to this?
when you know it should of been locked away
Tear silver clarity
through my lonely flesh
and crimson realisation
is that i can't see your face
Your pedestal of gold is now a pedestal of coal
a crumbling misfortune which i took years to build
but fade away and dissappear
there's no longer warmth for you to shelte
Is This?
Let forever fade into a moment
An hourglass into a grain of sand
Millennia into infinity
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Hours melt into days
Time we cannot give back
So I burn it all away
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Tears become oceans
Love fades away
Emotion dies
Is this what you thought you could never have?
Now shouts are whispers
The thoughts as we sleep
The dreams are eternal
Is this what you thought you could never have?
A Lullaby To My Baby Unborn by MunkDoobious, literature
Literature
A Lullaby To My Baby Unborn
a lullaby to my baby unborn
reach out for words you don't understand
the light in the darkness i sing away
open up your eyes, does it fade?
a lullaby sweet child for you to grasp
breathing in on choking air
soft transparent skin, can you feel?
my baby unborn enjoy your time
your darkness is your only light
because soon it goes away, do you know?
poor child you'll never know
i want you to stay but they would take you away
you'll never know me, do you want to?
don't tell me to smile
i feel you talking years from now
but years are lost, what is time?
time is stolen
a lullaby to my baby unborn
destined that way to stay, but do t
And
and when you die
your soul becomes a star
and you yourself are an angel
flitting between the stars
and if you relinquish your hate
the fiery fingers pulling at the feathers of your wings
are the hands of the ones you love
pushing you on to immortality
and if you let them push
instead of holding on
then now you are truly free
and one day you will be reunited
deep within the heaven you create for yourself
and then when you are reborn
when an eternity has passed
you will find new life, new love
and your old star will fade
to be replaced the next time you move on
and once again your loved ones will help you
on your way to
feel the breeze, of the sea
as it washes over me
felt a kiss, felt a touch
but i never really felt that much
leave my words, left unsaid
lie all day and cry in bed
start a fight, with myself
because i never really tried to help
whispered tears, down my face
i always lose the race
i look up, i look down
but i never looked around
when it rains, it only pours
go inside and close the door
shut away, what i felt
noone would ever tell
present, past, future tense
all come back to haunt again
live my life, through a loop
i feel i'm jumping through their hoops
final wind, in my hair
the final time i need to care
one foot out, one
Lost Child
My pale ash ghost
Lie before me
And float upon the crinkled waves
Of what once was comfort
Your eyes, once the sky
Are dull and listless like dirt
I cried for you child
And I wish you could hear
Because you would still be alive
To drown in my tears
But you have left
Taking with you the light
All I have is your body
So void of life
so radiant around me that i had to step inside
she lent me a kiss but i forgot the meaning
i wandered inside her and entered her world
enchanting her from within with the ice in my breath
and the freeze to my touch that leaves her shivering
breathe in the feeling that travels down her spine
and feel the hairs on her neck turn up to me and wonder
the wind that blew outside her was never mine
but i wish i had thought to rain down on her
why the lightning in her eyes had never set me alight
was a bitter unknown that tore my hopes apart
but the light shone through the tattered holes
leaving me alone to think as i explored her body
th
these tears bear my name
for you to wear on your face
these tears bear my blood
born from your disgrace
you have no right to lose control
i can't let go
and noone knows why i hate you
stood within your shadow
these tears bear no freedom
for that is what you've taken
these tears bear no memory
because memory you've forsaken
you have no right to dissappear
you cannot fade away
noone understands what you meant to me
noone saw that day
these tears they bear no meaning
for you to just ignore
these tears bear insignificance
as you walked out the door
you have no right to return
just go and don't come back
noone knew why you le
and i lie here
with a pen and a pad
filling up the time that i should spend with you
writing words that should be words for you
and thinking thoughts that should be thoughts for you
and i can't sleep
with my head on the pillow
wasting time when i could be writing
if i write everything down
then it will make sense
eventually...eventually
did you know that i could stop time?
if i knew how before
i would of stopped in my favourite moment
when i looked into your eyes and said i loved you
and i saw the happiness in your eyes
because you loved me so much too
she flows through my veins, like the blood forced around by my broken heart. a moment away is the eternity i hid from for most of my life, the definite moment when i realised it was all over. turning away and into the wind i feel it biting into my face, but it is a good pain, it brings with it the realisation that i too am only human, all of my delusions of being able to change something float away, so much like leaves in autumn.
step by step the gap grows between us, the space extends and warps into something more solid. i could reach out and touch the distance that has become, i don't even know her any more. but did i ever? do i even know